Life

When I understood and accepted my own darkness,

You never failed to remind me that I really am,

I guess I was consumed by my own light. 

Not a little bit sympathy, or empathy,

Just another reminder that I am such a failure,

To you,

I'm just exist. 

For Real?

Everybody seems to be excited for 2020,

Literally everybody but me,

Because i know what its gonna be,

Just another disappointing year for me,

So whats the difference then?

Nothing,

Still zero,

Absolute zero.